Hi friends! I have to be honest, it has been really tough finding the inspiration to write. As my dedicated readers know, my goal is to help other moms live their best life. The reality is that I have not been living my best life. I have been thrown a few curve balls lately and it has been a daily struggle to stay positive. There have been days that I have wanted to just throw in the towel and stay in bed. At times, I struggle to find the motivation to get through the day. I have good days and bad days, but the bad days are really tough. Staying positive is not easy, but is necessary in order to live your best life.
Motivation to Move Forward
I have learned so much over the last several months and I feel that it is my calling to help other moms. Life is not easy and each and every one of us has some type of “struggle” that we are working through. Whether it is trying to fit into your pre-baby jeans or navigating through financial hardship, I know the struggle is real. But, I also know that you have it in you to get through any struggle that you are faced with. While I know the road will not be easy, I am here to encourage and support you. We can and will get through this!
This past week, I have been really irritated about something and I got inspired to write again. If I am being candid, my recent diagnosis has caused me to age quite a bit. I was looking rough! My hair was falling out, my skin was crazy dry and my body was covered with rashes and white blotches. It was not pretty. Thankfully, I have been able to find some answers and on the outside I am looking a lot better than I was a few months. My hair is shiny again and I am starting to get my glow back. I look like a healthy mama on the outside once again. On the inside, it is whole different story.
Flares Are No Fun!!!
Unfortunately, I am in the middle of a flare. My joints ache, my head will not stop pounding and I am tired ALL THE TIME. Every time someone tells me I am looking great, I just smile and politely thank them. Yesterday, a coworker complimented me on how “put together” I looked. That morning, it took everything I had to get out of bed, shower and put makeup on. I just smiled and told her that I was feeling much better. The truth is, I was feeling like crap and questioned how I was going to make it through the rest of the day.
I have learned to accept that I will likely never get back to 100% and that I am going to have to battle the complications of of my various autoimmue conditions the rest of my life. I know there are going to be good days and bad days. The good days will be cherished and the bad days will be a reminder of how strong I really am.
Don’t Judge a Book by it’s Cover
As I was driving home yesterday, I was thinking a lot about what I have been through and what a few of my close freinds are dealing with. I have a friend dealing with a sick child, another friend who just lost her husband and another who is about to undergo a major surgery. Every time I talk to these women, I question their strength. If I did not know what they were going through personally, I would never have guessed they were working though what is likely one of the biggest struggles they will face in their lives.
This made me think of myself. Throughout my life, I have never been very open about all that I was going though. My childhood was filled with emotional and physical abuse, as well as living in poverty. In adulthood, I have struggled with self-worth and finding the courage to be vulernable and share my story. Until recently, I was not open about my past and was certainly not brave enough to share my struggles through blogging. On the outside, I appeared to be a happy, successful mom who had it all together. The truth is, I was falling apart on the inside.
I know I am not alone and I am certain that many of you are dealing with your own internal struggles right now.
You need to know that you are not alone.
Please do not make the same mistake that I made and end up being diagnosed with three different autoimmune disease and adrenal fatigue before you really start opening up. It is so not worth it. Talk to someone. Journal. Meditate. Try practicing yoga. If you have no one to talk to, I am here for you.
I am also writing this for those of you that are fortunate enough to not be struggling through life right now. Please do not assume that everyone lives that same perfect life that you do, if there is such a thing. That woman beside you at the coffee house could be struggling with depression due to losing a child. The woman on the treadmill next to you at the gym may be struggling to walk, let alone run, due to health issues. Your friend with the amazing Instagram feed my be struggling with her self-worth.
As women, we are strong. However, sometimes we are so strong that we do not let others in. We need to have the courage to be vulnerable and share our struggles with others. I am not saying you need to start a blog or share your details on social media. Find a village to support you. Surround yourself with positivity. Remove the negative influences in your life. Most importantly, know that you are not in this alone.
If you know someone that is struggling, do not assume that all is good. She needs you more than you will know. Take her to coffee or just be her shoulder to cry on.
Moving forward, I will never assume that anyone has it easy in life. Let’s face it, no one does. Find your village and embrace this messy life one day at a time!